This is me trying to put a pot roast in the microwave.

I've always been a person the rushed through everything. I've lived 27 years like this: I wake up throw what ever is clean on, brush my teeth, stare at my hair and think its okay i'll wear a hat. When mowing the lawn i run everything over, i never clear out the lawn or even bother looking. I drive fast and if it fits in the microwave then i nook it! A dear friend sat me down recently and said you go so fast you don't enjoy your life....

I know Im a million miles an hour. I can design a site, listen to music, all while making dinner, washing clothes, talking on the cell phone, and as i'm running through my day I don't enjoy it. Im constantly waiting to live my life. I'm waiting for the next big thing. The next season....that one season i've been waiting for for 10 years.

And a bout a month ago I just stopped running things over. I just stopped. I woke up on my 28th birthday and I looked in the mirror and thought what have I been waiting on. I spent my birthday at The Shine Conference and just felt like all that i had been running over and rushing through were life lessons, character builders i missed. So i just stopped trying to do it all. And I gave it back to God. Here...i don't want it anymore unless your in it. So be it.....life please begin.

I stopped asking, and wondering and just sat still. I just sat still.
And everday God just started to show me, move me, I'd hear watch that, speak these words...

i've been an emotional head case ever since.

So i sit here 28 and exactly where im supposed to be. Hanging off a cliff, with nothing attached ready too jump. No agenda, dreams given back to the one who gave them to me and ready for whatever is next....

humbled.

I'm ready now.........


-chari