2 a.m. ramblings.....Sleep is over rated!

DISCLAIMER: I AM ON A LOT OF MEDS!!!

Haven't slept much lately.

Tonight Im awake due to my bronchitis and this stupid cough that keeps making my asthma flair up. The stupidity of all this being sick nonsense is Im always working and never resting and I have horrible eating habits and never exercise! So once or twice a year I get bronchitis or pneumonia, cus i "supposedly" have an unhealthy lifestyle called "WORKING". BEING SICK IS STUPID!

This constant lack of running myself dry has now led to my lungs having scar tissue on it! So im supposed to take this preventive asthma medicine that I never take! Why not you might ask...well cause i forgot to and then just stopped!

SO..im awake sitting in the living room, can't breathe and my cat just farted on me... Esteban is asleep.

I've always been a person that could sleep through anything. I can sleep through storms, and people screaming, and the TV being on, and lately the rat who lives in my attic has been having keg parties and I just sleep right through em. But these last couple nights seems like my body sleeps but my mind won't. Maybe its the holidays, and the reality that this year is coming to and end? Maybe its its all the drastic changes in my life...Not sure....but every year around this time im usually pretty sick and wondering if where im at in this world is where im supposed to be.


Im 28...I've chased a lot of dreams and this coming year i might just catch it.
This coming year i might actually join the list of those who have tasted the unknown...

So this thanksgiving weekend im thinking the thing im most thankful for is "the dream".

I dreamed of love and God gave me Esteban.

I dreamed of my giftings being used in a away beyond my own imagination and last week I was able to be part of an amazing team that touches thousands.

Dreams are where its at.

I'd rather have lived this life with a dream and fail, then to have never dreamed at all.

I guess that's what makes this life livable....dreams

"But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness,

and all these things shall be added to you."

Matthew 6:33

-chari