Found it!

I am in constant search for my purpose. I long to know God's will in my life. I'm such a royal screw up, that's right I am, that if I stop searching It's very easy for me to become upset at the things I cannot fix or move forward and I just fade in the backdrop. Every day I can make a list of my failures, and how I've fallen short. I'm a walking disaster.

For example... Just today:
1. I slept 2 hours last night cause I wasn't feeling well so I spent the whole day angry and mean.
2. I definitely reached my sketchy word quota today! I think I went over..
3. there were maybe 10 different situations where i should have been Christ-like and instead totally acted like a big baby...
4. i've allowed certain situations to stress me out beyond belief to where its making me physically ill!
( my inner sanity is screaming at me, " SERIOUSLY! Get a hold of yourself." I am sure if my inner sanity was a person they would slap me like they slapped the lady in the movie airplane! hahaha" )

and that is just today, february 15, 2010.

Tonight as I was reading my Bible I came across something i've read maybe 50 times and it never clicked.

^"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."  1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

So im in search of what God wants in my life, right? Well, there it is...

1. BE JOYFUL ALWAYS: How about not allowing my flesh and stupid situations steal my joy! I have so many thing to be joyful about. I just celebrated 6 years married to most amazing man ever,  I have an amazing job and career! I have an amazing family and Awesome friends and a life giving church! Dude Its a Win all around!
2. PRAY CONTINUALLY: So all God wants is to hear me and hang out with me? Well that's easy.
If only I spent less time being a psycho workaholic and on my facebook then maybe God would just blow my mind with a verse i've read 50 times before! JESUS WIN!
3. GIVE THANKS IN ALL CIRCUMSTANCES: Okay so I don't do this very well. I'm a whiner! I'm an EPIC WHINER! So tomorrow i'm gonna try to work this one out....

Well there you have it folks...."God's will for you in Christ Jesus.."

Please Jesus, Help me do this right...


~Chari