Friday, March 26, 2010

Part 1: Passion has NO halfway mark

I am a pretty passionate person. I love fully and there isn't a whole lot of middle ground. So when things go awry, or when the unknown replaces the certain ( which has happened more then I can even count ) I have had to learn how to find a middle ground. Even in moments where I struggle my heart aches because my faith and passion for Christ burns and It won't turn off, even though I try to turn it off.

The last week, even though my flesh wants to hideaway, I've made myself stay in the word . ( which is very difficult for me) I've been studying the life of Joseph. If anyone had some seriously sketchy stuff happen to him, Joseph really is the poster child. As I studied his life I realized he never really questioned God, he didn't blame God, and he never quit on God.

Part 1: Questioning God

I am sure at some point he was like, "SERIOUSLY, GOD!?".  He was a human being. But when I say question, I mean a sassy questioning kinda like Job did. If you read the story of Job you'll find God spoke to Job pretty sternly about questioning Him. As I read about Job and mediated on Joseph I felt a bit frustrated...I have recently found myself in the midst of a massive detour, and I really just want to scream at the heavens, "AGAIN? REALLY!". But if I have learned anything through Joseph, and Job I know the outcome is always better then the temporal desire of us as humans.

I imagine Joseph in prison ( in my mind its a prison like the Chateau Dif, like in the Count of Monte Cristo ) and he was favored among all the others and God used him in that prison. God used Joseph's gifting IN A PRISON!  And that moment was just one of the many things God used to eventually bring forth to save his people from famine...

So I hope no matter what prison you find yourself in that you know no matter the setting, God can and will totally use you for amazing things. Be patient, one day like Job things will be restored and like Joseph your life purpose is bigger then you can even imagine.

Staggering on through the impossible ( thanks Trish ),
Chari