I am pretty sure its in Superman II where Superman struggles with the life given to him, and the result is he gives his powers back. He just wants to be normal, ( what he assumes normal is any way).I certainly can say I have at times felt this way, and even as I write this I can honestly say more than not I feel like this...
I can't fly, and I can't see through walls but I have this call on my life that at times has felt like I am wrapped in chains. I was reminded of what Paul said, ( Romans 1:1) that he was a slave to Christ and I definitely have felt at times like a slave and not a thriving individual.
But being that I am a problem solver, to a fault at times, this latest realization has caused me to trace my steps back and evaluate what has led me to this feeling of wanting to give it back, and become what I perceive as normal. And all things lead back to one thing...
- I struggle with the wait, and in the wait I have bypassed why God has me there.
the end result ... my heart has grown weary.
The Wait.
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life. Prov. 13:12
Not sure what your waiting on, but i've been waiting for some major stuff. And it seems like no matter how long I wait, the only thing that awaits me is more waiting laced in trial after trial. Sadly in this waiting room, I at times have lost my vision, my hope, and my sense of self.I've been in and out of hospitals and waiting rooms my whole life it seems , and everyone can agree waiting in a Dr.'s office and watching people get called in when you've been waiting longer is SUPER annoying. Especially when your hypothetically bleeding to death and they seem to only have a scratch! ...*sigh ...story of my life.
negative aspects of the wait
1. Waiting in general sucks. 2. Waiting rooms usually are smelly and muggy, and a depressing shade of 1983 baby blue (but in my spiritual waiting room its just uncomfortable, and makes me wanna cry, and permanently sit on my couch)
3. Waiting hurts, and stretches us in places we never realized we needed to be stretched.
positive aspects of the wait
1. Waiting molds your character. Sometimes our character cannot sustain the next season and in the wait is where God builds our Character.2. Waiting Rooms give us the opportunity to reflect God in a setting that is less desirable. It takes a special person to love the unlovable, and to reflect Christ when they feel abandoned themselves. But its in these moments where God can really use us.
3. The Waiting room strips away "self" and can be easily mistaken of stripping us of vision.
Truth is we are being stripped of is our vision. Many times what we see is not what God see's and in order for us to move forward we need new eyes.
Though waiting is the worst, waiting is what is needed to move forward. And even though at times I (you) feel like we haven't taken a step, God is making strides on our behalf.
So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up. Galatians 6:9
So the lesson for today kids is that the wait refines your passion.
