What if you never reap what I've sown, Will I still sow?

I find myself asking myself this question recently. I've been plagued with "WHAT IF" for as long as I can remember, and pressing through the uncertainty has been difficult but something i've grown accustomed to doing.

I could actually make a list of my "what if's"...they include serving, and my career, and whether I am making the right decisions, because the outcomes have not been what I expected. I'd think I have it all together at this point but alas I don't. I watch people I love suffer through disappointment and loss and I wonder, is it worth it?

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When I was 19 I watched a woman break a bat over her knee. Her name was Janet Abraham-Clark. She was part of the Power Team. Even at 19 I was ready to give up, I was then, like now, consumed with the "what if"...She took the remnant of this wooden Louisville slugger and wrote out Galatians 6:9.

So let's not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don't give up.

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Not sure why at 11 p.m. on a random Thursday evening I feel compelled to share that I yet again do not have it all together, and question God constantly. Not sure why, especially since my list of things God has walked me through outweighs my "WHAT IF" list, but then again I am imperfect and broken.  I am human and God is bigger than all my distrust and questions.

So to answer the question...What if you never reap what i've sown, Will I still sow? 

Undoubtedly, Yes

"All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better."  ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

I hope one day I can stand before the throne and see Jesus face to face and have him say, "good job Chari, you did exactly what I asked of you..."




-Dreaming Big. Loving God.
Chari